Monday, September 14, 2009

UGHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i just bawled my eyes out and yelled at my dad because he kept telling me to look for some card with a fax number on it that he supposedly gave me even though i kept reminding him that he never gave me any card and that both him and my mom always do this stupid thing to me where they tell me something happened that clearly DID NOT HAPPEN but it's their word against mine or whatever and i'm stuck being made out to look like an incompetent piece of shit when it's really their crappy memories at fault.

everything hurts. my shoulders hurt, my neck hurts, my back hurts, my toe hurts, my head hurts and my throat hurts. there's a blood spatter on my wrist and i am definitely not going to wash it off.

i'm in one of those moods where i basically just want to turn all the lights off and sleep away the anxiety/bad feelings/etc.

my internet therapist doesn't want to talk to me anymore.

4 comments:

  1. Blood spatter on your wrist! From cutting your wrist? Or from something else entirely? :(

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  2. oh no! i didn't want to say because i didn't want people to be grossed out or something, but there was some weird blood pocket thing on my toe so i pressed on it and a bloody (not quite blood) substance squirted out!

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  3. Ohhh. And now your nail is falling off.

    :(

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